Staying focused

 “Well-arranged time is the surest mark of a well arranged mind.” I’m making a goal to get to work on time for a month so I can be a good employee. Plus, I really want to stop feeling rushed when getting up in the morning. I’m going to get up when my alarm goes off, the first time and feel the sun on my face to be renewed! “Dream the impossible dream, Fight the unbeatable foe, Strive with your last ounce of courage, to reach the unreachable star.” I can do it because I have the drive and will power to do what is needed. For example, I lost 90 lbs. by eating a healthy diet. I thought it was impossible to give up soda, but I was able to do it with determination! It’s amazing how strong our minds are and how we can become better. ”Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise.” I’ve been really grateful to be aware of the effects of the ego and how it can make you feel you deserve a reward for what we do. I am so humbled by the power of oneness and how it helped me to let go of past hurts and move toward just loving no matter if I get it in return. I didn’t like always feeling hurt by other people’s actions, but that was all in my mind! I have all the love and light I need inside myself. I can now focus all my energy on what makes me happy. “Joy descends gently upon us like the evening dew.”

Be at Peace with You

Been I having some anxiety this week because I feel neglected by my best friend. I'm not liking this feeling, but she is having a lot of changes in her life. She has a new man in her life and I'm happy for her. She seems happy with him. I just wish she wanted to hang out with me sometimes too. I feel ridicules being jealous of her new relationship, but I'm just not feeling like she wants to spend time with me lately...
 I was getting really mad about it on Thursday and wanted to just not talk to her.
Then I  realized why I was feeling so bad and was able to breath and center my self yesterday. Not letting other people control how I feel is the key to being happy. I don't want anyone pulling me down and my happiness can only come from inside me. I have all I need right her right now.

 If she needs to have her space then I'm going to give it to her. She is my friend and even if I don't see her as much, I will always love her. I guess I should be used to it, I always have to go over to other peoples houses. I hardly ever get texts from my friends. I love spending time with my friends, but how long would it take for them to message me first to hang out? It's a question that make me feel bad and I wish I didn't get so emotional about it.
 I think I'm a good friend. What's wrong with me that makes them not talk to me? Ok, I'm getting on the wrong track again... I'm writing this because of this negative thoughts that come and make me feel so trouble. I am love and I will give love to everyone. To give love is to be selflessly without reward.:)
  "Dedicate yourself to the good you deserve and desire for yourself. Give
yourself peace of mind. You deserve to be happy. You deserve delight."

 I find strength in my Divine and will be focused on the present.

                                                                        Namista